Current mood:	distressed
Current music:	Planet Smashers

why
you never once tried to fight for me
you abandoned me when i was at a point in my life that i needed you the most
i was your perfect guy till you found someone else then when that didnt work you came back but then another guy came along and now u have left me again.
you constantly try to make me look like the bad guy to make urself feel better and make urself look better.
You were infatuated with me and never really loved me i know this because when i said i couldnt see you anymore your reply was well you gotta do what you gotta do c ya.
thats all i was worth to you after a year and a half.
sorry im not tuff enough for you
sorry im not hot enough for u
I was always there for you in your times of need
now while im hurting the most and im in need of someone who loves me you are no where except to make things worse
you tell me that you are not into anyone else however your myspace would say otherwise
"Im a movie fanatic, I could cuddle on the couch all day and watch movies , and i think i have found a great person to do those things with " direct quote. you tell me that sitting around watching movies isnt good enough anymore and yet u certainly have found someone who its good enough for I even tried to make days for us to hang out so we could go out and do things but like today you had better things to do and better ppl to do them with.
You are ashamed of me and hide things that we have done recently and never really talk about me showing how little i really mean to you. We spent all of fireworks together and i wrote a lot about you and all the good times we had most recently as for your journal you barely mention our hangouts that apparently meant so much to you and yet you can talk at great lenght of your hang out with chad. I never had a problem with you having friends ever but when u tell me i mean so much and then talk on the phone to chad for an hour and a half while im waiting with a movie on pause and not even care or when u tell me ur not gonna be late haning out with chad (on a day we were supposed to hang out on) then show up at 3 and not even offer and appology it really shows your lack of love that you say is there
You have treated me like a piece of trash and you dont even care you cannot deny any of this because it is all fact. Im not saying you ever messed around anyone but u definetly put them before me and are definetly interested in him or them
you owe me the fucking truth about feelings and how it is.
oh and another thing we talked about seeing white chix together and you were all like ya we will see it and ill use my passes and everything then u went and saw it with chad then had the nerve to sign my journal and get mad that i was gonna go see it with sean. You are being completely selfish and mean to the one person u said you would love forever and never ever hurt you swore to be mine always and never let me go you promised to always be truthful to me

to make things worse you even came over and acted like things were ok during and before fire works.
we were even intimate together and it seems like you just wanted to fuck and that made me hurt even more knowing that i was used

do i really mean that little to you
why do you get off on hurting someone who loves you so much
I need my closure so i can move on
please at least give me that
I know your probably making me out to be a psycho and a total jerk but i have not done anything but ask for honesty
if you ever wanted me out of your life you could have said so
if you ever wanted someone else i would have left you alone but you keep telling me that you love me and all that other stuff that u swear is truth.
come clean
tell the truth
Ive never done a thing to you so why did you decide to do this to me?
Love
Adam