Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	some mello mood music that tom has on in his room sounds sad

i get the hint
im sorry i have bothered you so much
i just want to see you one last time before i say goodbye
i know its most likely all my fault that we cant be together now or ever
keep the money and the book i dont care about those things
i only said i wanted them so i could see u again
yesterday we had a severe gas leak 3 union gas trucks were working on the house from 8 - around midnight or 12 30 i think thats why i was so sick
i called you because i was actually in need of someone and you didnt even call me back this is how i know you want nothing to do with me
i came to you for help and ive made u hate me so much that you couldnt even help me
im sorry i caused u so much trouble in the last while i was just trying to fight for what i thought u wanted and i just wouldnt look at reality.
thankyou for one of the best years i have ever had and by far the best relationship i have ever had im sorry it didnt work for you
I hope you find someone who will give you what u need and deserve because thats all i want for you

on a different note ive lost my little tummy
infact my stomach is kinda curving in which is odd
my eyes are stinging but we know what causes that
i havnt slept for more than 4 hrs in the past 5 days
my heart is broken
this is all for now
i wish i was working so i would at least have something to occupy me
my life is a mess
that is all for now
goodbye
Adam